So, I always worry about my faith...my salvation and being "left behind" seriously cause me so much anxiety. It sounds totally ridonc, but it's been something that I've really been struggling with for about 9 months now. I question the sincerity of my faith; do I really believe in Christ or am I just seeking to be fire-proofed? if I have these doubts and questions, it must mean that I don't really have faith and therefore can't be "saved by grace through faith." And since I have these thoughts/questions/doubts it makes me sometimes fear eternity. Do you see where being Type A, perfectionist, etc can really get you into trouble?
So now that you have some background information on my current struggles and temptations, I wanted to share something that was semi-encouraging to me. This morning at my grandparent's church (shout out to Village Meadows Baptist!) the sermon was called Being a Courageous Parent. Ironic since I'm going to be a parent in a very short amount of time... Anyways, there was a piece of scripture that stuck out to me some. The pastor spoke about Moses and his parents and their courage. In the message he shared this passage, Hebrews 11: 24-25. It reads:
24 By faith Moses, when he had grown up, refused to be known as the son of Pharaoh’s daughter. 25 He chose to be mistreated along with the people of God rather than to enjoy the fleeting pleasures of sin.
This passage was encouraging to me because by faith Moses made certain decisions. I'd like to think that I too have made similar choices, to not do what this world enjoys, because I have faith. I pray that the way I have lived my life is because I sincerely want to please and honor God, and not just simply because I was raised a certain way or had no desire to become a drunkard or all of the many other reasons I tell myself.
So, hopefully this little tid-bit of my randomness has encouraged or challenged you. And I humbly ask for your prayers while I continue to seek and find confidence in my relationship with the Lord and the promises He offers.
oh, and I apologize for lying...there aren't any pictures in this post either...sorry!